3.2.10

confrontation with a masked metaphor


DO NOT FORCE THOSE WORDS into my mouth and those thoughts into my head. I fear not the face you wear but the monsters that lurks behind your teeth. I can smell the stench whenever you exhale. They are stuck on your gums, rotten and scabbed like the secret I have long kept. Reminding me is pointless so I pray you—stop telling me things that I should be afraid of for I have long memorized the list. I could recite them to you even in dreams—the places where they usually stay and breed like flies; haunting me in my own subconscious awareness and the fear they inflict carried on till I open my eyes. But I know this attempt is futile. You will not give up that easily. I can feel you breathing on my neck, crawling underneath my feet. You dig the ground deep and eagerly with your fingernails to make me a hole where I would surely trip and fall. It will be a long way down; an endless free fall worse than the bone-crushing impact against the bottom. But I still have to try. You can stop strangling me for I grew numb to physical pain. You can let go because it’s only a matter of time before I amass the sufficient courage to voluntarily jump into the void myself. I fear the uncertainties lurking in its depths, but the darkness has also been a great ally, motivating me to see myself from a distance. In its eerie presence, I do not a have face or imperfections. I could only see is a heart, beating the questions to find the answers it seeks. In the end, everything will be revealed: truth, lies and everything that blurs those two, clear as illuminated by a thousand burning suns. Once again I am asking you; shut that word whole in your face and dance your way into the masquerade. Do not remove that mask as will I; for we both know that a secret is made by hiding something… and people are revealed by hiding themselves…


10 comments:

  1. ron, vote mo na ako.. hehe. off topic.. hehe

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  2. Reading the post is like looking at the mirror facing our own fears, rejections, secrets and struggles. Great use of words, always the best!

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  3. aw Ron.. this is nostalgic..haha.. LOL


    ayun..nawala ka agad sa FB..? Hmm..

    Basta text me pag andito ka Silangan ah?!

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  4. Hey RON! Do me a pabor.... pleashhhhhhhh.... Can you make the font a bit (just a tiny bit) BIGGER? please ron.... Pleash...............

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  5. its a reality. minsan talaga hindi maiwasang magtago sa likod ng maskara.

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  6. REALITY CHECK....

    Carried away ako.. Nakakarelate ng sobra...

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