You have not known what you are.
You have slumbered upon yourself all your life.
Your eyes have been as much as closed most of the time.
What you have done is already in mockeries.

The mockeries are not you.
Underneath them
And within them,
I see you lurk...


-Walt Whitman


7.9.09

conflicted steps








Step one, two

Spell love

With your kiss

That I miss

And then release

My lips goodbye

Then say hi

To the end

Knees bent

On the ground

Feet bound

To last forever

But never

Forget my scent,

Nor lament

The fading shadow

That is I.


Till death not part

From my heart—

A secret place

To find and chase

Your voice

That sings songs

And prolongs

My breaths,

And breaks the line

Of decaying time.


Swift as air

My pulse beats

In the heat

Of your skin

I inhale

In reverse—

A curse

I will embrace

And trace

Back to this night

And your light

Tearing my mind

Rewind!


Step one, two

Say I love you

Then free me from you—

That I will miss

And I will kiss

Only in dreams

After this fleeting bliss.








24 comments:

ShatterShards said...

This, my friend, is contradicting, and all too tragic.

To profess one's love, only to let it go is one experience that one shouldn't have to go through. But the sad reality is it happens more often than necessary.

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Aha! Self-confessed book borrower! I really need to catalog my collection, but I haven't a clue yet on how to start. hehe

_ice_ said...

two thumbs up..

musta ron?

jonathan said...

Great mix of emotions! Just as a saw reveals the finer grains of the wood, your writings opens a layer each of your wondrous existence.

Theo Martin said...

knilig ako. ewan ko, it evoked a sensual feeling that i felt when I was watching, "in the mood for love."

Chyng said...

Ron,
may ibabalita ako sayo. Di ba lately One Tree hill pinapanood ko. Nanganak ang ate ko, and since lalaki ang ine-expect nila sa new born, eh ngaing babae. Walang ready na name, and so we named her HAILEY! :D

ELAY said...

THE BEST!! I sooo wish I could write like this. galing mo master.

fufu said...

wow... so beautifully written... good!! kiss in the dream? so romantic~~ lol

ACRYLIQUE said...

We climb and climb and at the top we fly
Let the world go on below us, we are lost in time
And I dont know really what it means
All I know is that you love me, in my dreams


- In my Dreams by Reo Speedwagon

wanderingcommuter said...

sana magka love life ka na... hehehe!

JoShMaRie said...

RON! HOW ARE YOU? MISS YAH! NGAYON LANG ULIT AKO NAPADAAN DITO. HEHEH.

NAKOW, HINAHANAP KITA NITONG MGA NAKARAANG BUWAN SA YM. HEHEHE. NAKUHA KO NUMBER MO DATI DI BA? KAYA LANG DI KO MAKITA SA NOTEBOOK KO. HEHEHE. ;)

gentle said...

same point as shats'. the poym in its sing-song fashion gets to levels that make one think on the push-pull of relationships.

hay.

Mon said...

lagi aong nauubusan ng adjective pambla este adjective ng paghanga pagnagbabsa ako dito hehe

Allen Yuarata said...

parang maganda tong gawing rap. kung musically inclined lang ako edi sana ginawan ko to ng tono.

step one, two, break it down, yoh! nyahahaha!

~Kinesics said...

you are so good with words :)

I admire that!

Anyways, it's been a while since the the last time I was in the blogsphere...

Hope you are well, Ron!

jasonhamster said...

goosebumps ako habang binabasa ko..
di ko alam..

nadadama ko kasi bawat words..

at ang pagkakahalu-halo nito..

parang ulam..

ang sarap basahin..


galing kuya ron

mark said...

wow! galing talaga~ EMOTIONS WERE BEING pOURED!

KRIS JASPER said...

Simple but easily read. At least the meanings werent hidden in various forms of psychobabbles.

Smooth to the eyes and the brain (to those who have it). NICE!

jayvie said...

this is very witty! i had to read it over and over again, until it got stuck to my head. well done, as always. something fresh btw. Ü

Angelo said...

ah, women.... can't live with them, can't live without...

I can spew a bunch of cliches for you like "if you really love someone then you'll let them go", or "it's better to have loved and lost" blah blah blah...

but I like this one: "there's plenty of fish in the sea"... find yourself another muse brother hehe.... although I like the tortured poetry...

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BTW, the same goes for those of us who almost lost loved ones in 9-11.... the reality is that we all lost something that day.

take care man.

Walongbote said...

Great poem! Nice choice of words.. musta na?

the spool artist said...

this is one of the reasons why i missed blogging and reading blogs... glad to be back in your your universe, ron!

Mahesh Sindbandge said...

its a very different poem i came across.. Good attempt
Keep penning :)

Cheers

Abou said...

binasa ko sya mula sa ending pataas. pwede din pala

hehe

Denis said...

i love the play on irony.

and the music, winner hehe

miss this blog


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kmusta brother?