You have not known what you are.
You have slumbered upon yourself all your life.
Your eyes have been as much as closed most of the time.
What you have done is already in mockeries.

The mockeries are not you.
Underneath them
And within them,
I see you lurk...


-Walt Whitman


7.11.08

metamorphosis


I
WOKE UP ONE MORNING, the idea fixed in my head. i just knew i had to do it or else nothing would make the anxiety i was feeling to dissipate. i remembered opening eyes, walked like a zombie, taught our baby parrot how to caw, and consulted andrew and jing about it for the last time. as expected, i got the answer i was dreading for more than a week. but i didn’t care anymore. i knew i had to make a choice. and i did.


i walked outside, bathed in the morning sunlight as question marks and doubts sang together with the birds in my head. after walking five blocks, i went inside a barbershop, mouth dry. i consulted the barber first and heard the most beautiful words. after heaving my deepest morning breath, it soon started. it only took 30 minutes. with sweating hands and my pumping hard on my throat and the lulling sounds of a hair razor on my ear, i finally solved one of my life’s greatest dilemmas.

i was transformed from this…










...to this.


barely a month ago, my friends advised me to do something about my ‘wolverine hair’. my hair was a disaster. my hairlines were receding and thinning. i admit i used to apply a lot of hair gels on my hair when i was still at school and i like wearing caps. eventually, it had turned into a very serious problem. i can’t leave the house without wearing a cap because hair became virtually impossible to maintain. it looked dead and wiry. it made me looked very old too. haley (the mastermind), anna, and tracey managed to convince me to buzz cut my hair (semikal) in the hopes that i would look sexy (?!).

after meeting with hales and company, i went home and consulted my parents and brothers about my plan. surprisingly, they were so against it that i soon regret the idea divulging it to them. i told my plan to some friends and their reactions were all the same! marvie even texted me one night: ron, ano namang pinaggagawa mo sa sarili mo? may problema ka ba? they were just so used to my ‘genius-good-boy-look-sort-of-look’, i guess. but their arguments made sense. the haircut could make or break me. if it didn’t work out for me cutting my head off would be the best alternative.

if your problem is your hair, get rid of it. i feel great about it now. i am not sure if it looked good on me due to mix reactions (some say it does look good on me but others say it made me look like a con man), but it was way better than having my hair before. my head feels lighter, i can think clearer (?), and the best part is i have no hair to bother me anymore. no hair to maintain. and i feel more confident in a way. haha!

i was invited to attend a halloween party at anna’s place. it was the first halloween party i’ve ever attended. i wasn’t able to come up with a costume so just i insisted and tried to convince the party that i was supposed to be wentworth miller of prison break! haha! before the night ended, people were calling me by just my nickname---went. hahaha!

this photo of me was taken at the halloween party! nyaha!



perhaps, you’re right, hales. i look sexy. hahaha!







50 comments:

Aris said...

uy, bagay!

change is always good. :)

RonTuron said...

Parekoy... not bad at all! hehe
naalala ko tuloy yung una kong pagpapakalbo! hahaha! langya, aksidente pero bagay naman.

bagay na bagay sayo. Hep hep, wag ka ng babalik sa sa lumang style. hehehe

dati ako sinabihang busabos, at adik nung mahaba yung buhok ko! hahahaha

Lance said...

it suites you, dude...
good move..
uso na yata ngayon ang semikal... pero sakin two choices lang talaga... emo or korean look lang kasi di bagay ang kalbo sa kin..
or maybe hindi ko lang ma imagine na kalbo ako..hehhe
i'm still 20 and so I have a long way ahead.. i only apply wax.. hope it doesn't damage my luscious hair in the future..
hehehe!

JoShMaRie said...

parang mas cute ka lucas dun sa me buhok ka. hehehehehe. :) bagong post, bagong hairdo, at bagong header? what else is new with you? hehehe. :)

RONeiluke, RN said...

aris: you think so? hehe! yeah it's good but mos of the time, scary.

ron: tingin mo? nako hindi na talaga ako babalik! hahaha!

lance: hehe! thanks! ay ganun? maniniwala ka ba na simula pagkabata 2 lang ang naging hairstyle ko? barber's cut at oasis lang! hahaha! gusto ko sana ng ibang style kaya lang wala ng lalagyan ng style. ala ng buhok eh..hehehe! hindi ko rin maimagine na kalbo ako dati. lakasan lang talaga ng loob! hahaha!

JM: hehehe! aside from those things you mentioned..WALA NA! hahaha! ganun? T_T

the spool artist said...

i just had my hair done semikal last week too! hahaha... probably because in my generation, hindi pa available ang hair products ng Toni & Guy kaya mumurahing hair gel from China lang ang available (melamine isdatchu?) kaya heto tuloy, thinning hair na rin... di rin nag wo-work ang mne & tail eh! hahaha... sige, konting paligo pa, prison break na talaga ang hitsura mo!

gentle said...

haha! naaliw ako. you made this entry bout having a haircut very entertaining. :)

Mugen said...

You look good.

RJ said...

Bagay! Sexy nga, bro!

I bet hindi nakakatakot ang halloween costume/appearance mo. 'Di sila natakot, are they? hahaha! o",)

madjik said...

inpernes bagay sa yo scofield.. errr ron hehehe!

RONeiluke, RN said...

spool artist: cool! pareho pala taying skinned eh. hehehe! naks naman nagmemane and tail ka pala! hahaha! well, ganun lang talaga..unaunahan lang mawalan ng buhok! hahaha!

lamang lang si went ng isang paligo eh..haha!

peace out!

gentle: ang kulit naman ng name. gentle! hehehe! thanks!

mugen: you think? hahaha! thanks, mate.

RJ: akala nila may naligaw na pugante sa party nila! hahaha! thanks.

jules said...

wahahaha! :) uy bagay :D ako semikal din. kainis kasi hair ko. ang tigas. hmpt. actually bagay sayo. parang mas gwapo ka tignan kesa sa me buhok ka :D

=D ingat lagi!

RONeiluke, RN said...

madjik: thanks! hahaha! pangangatawan ko na to! hahaha!

RONeiluke, RN said...

jules: hahaha! pareho na tayong skinned! hehehe! nako kaya nga ako nagpagupit eh. parang patay na yung buhok ko at napapanot pa ako! hehehe! salamat!

onatdonuts said...

naks, ok naman sayo. Sa akin kasi di bagay ang semikal...malapad ang mukha ko at flat pa ang likod ng ulo ko.haha

TENTAY™ said...

ayoko sa kalbo!!! huhuhu!!
puro mga badboy yan!!

joke lang. bagay!! ;)

gravity said...

wow! felt like extreme makeover. i can relate to this post as i had the same dilemma 2 months ago. shaved my head as well.

KRIS JASPER said...

That do suits you. If only I could have that style as well...

Kaya lang I will look like Winnie the pooh. lol.

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I have just re-uploaded it. Should be ok now... I hope.

Fjordan Allego said...

hahahaa ayos lang yan.. pareho tayo ng dilemma noon..

kasi nagpakalbo ako last year, sulsol na rin ng mga kaibigan at kabarkada pero maraming nagsasabi na hindi nga bagay sa akin ang kalbo tsk tsk.. pero merong mga nagsasabing bagay sa akin.

ayon nagpakalbo nga ako.. for a change hehehe,

samut saring reaction ang natanggap ko (feeling sikat) hehehe pero ayos naman, hindi ko na inulit hahaha

kahit na marami pa rin ang nagsasabing mas bagay sa akin ang kalbo, sa akin naman, pumyat kasi ako ngayon, pagnagpakalbo ako, baka magmukha akong kalansay hahhaaa.

http://fjordz-hiraya.blogspot.com

~Kinesics said...

Bagay! :)

It fits you...but, no one would be able to grab your head anymore *wink* hahaha jk jk

I remember when I shaved my head 3 years ago, everyone said it looked hot. And I agree...you look hot there, my friend!

And the best thing about being shaved head...it's less maintenance! :)

~kinesics

blographics said...

ron, astig ang porma mo ah. ako kaya bagay ko ganyan? di ko pa na-try ganyan eh.

krishA said...

wow.

it looks better :)

I think shaved head suits you!

REDLAN said...

uy bagong header, bagong hair.... cut. your had a right move! nasa hitsura yan, kapag gwapo ka kahit anong hairstyle bagay sau. napapalinya ka na sa mga hot men niyan gaya ni will d., ryan e. and who else? ron.lol. mas magaan sa pakiramdam ang maiksi ang buhok o walang buhok. ako semi-kalbo na medyo may buhok konti. ang gel kasi nakaka damage sa buhok. now i hve an idea what if, ang mga kalbo magmo-model rin sa shampoo gaya ng clear. clear as in walang buhok. kahit naman kalbo dapat mag shampoo rin di ba?

REDLAN said...

hindi na send ang comment ko?

Anonymous said...

bald is indeed sexy!

like it..


J

RONeiluke, RN said...

kuya onat: ahehehe! ganun ba? ganun nga din yung iniisip ko pero sabi ng barbero babagay daw kasi bilog naman daw 'kahit papano' hehehe! thanks! are you working on another story?

tentay: goodboy ako pramis! T_T thanks! :)

gravity: extreme makeover indeed! hehehe! pareho na pala yong naka-semikal. hehehe! peace out!

KJ: winnie the pooh is cute! many children will love you! hahaha!

fjords: hehehe! ako naman nanaba ngayon at nung nagpakalbo ako feeling ko mas nagmukhang mataba ako! hehehe!

change is good :) le's not mind what they'd say...self confidence should comes first.

kinesics: i totally agree that i am hot...hahaha! NO! haha! i kid! i agree that it's less maintenance and my head feels so light.

thanks!

blographics: try mo rin! hehehe!

krixa: thanks! :) at dahil dyan ganito na lang ang hairstyle ko for life! hahaha!

redlan: oo nman! hehehe! may anit din naman ang mga kalbo! hahaha! thanks! hehehe! can't wait for your controversial post! hahaha!

gravity said...

hey, im a fan hehe. i love your 'flash forward' post. thanks for dropping by my blog.

RONeiluke, RN said...

gravity: wow! that's really cool :) thanks for the link... i enjoyed writing that one... peace out!

kalansaycollector said...

wow new look. okey yan presko. ;)

onatdonuts said...

OO talagang flat ang ulo ko sa likod, haha kaya hindi bagay sa akin ang kalbo...pero sayo bagay naman. May binubuo na namang istorya, Di ko muna sasabihin baka ma-memohan ako dito kasi binubunyag ko ang line-up namin for next episode pero interesting yung topic. :-)

Dylan Dimaubusan said...

ibang klase ka rin noh! na-entertain sila sa pagppasemikalbo mo! eh kung magpa-skin head kaya ako..nyak!!!

*WEEKS??!! ibang klase naman pala yang imagination mo eh..hehehe! sana nakakatulog ka pa. hehehe! thanks :)

-yun na nga eh.. lalo na nung panahon ni sadako tas mag-isa ako sa baguio.. nakakatulog ako pag sumisikat na yung araw.. scaredy-cat. nyaha


*ps... a twist in my story??? fan ka ba ng secondhand serenade? hehehe!
-hehe, hende. kapatid ko, emo punk yun eh.. ala akong ibang maisip na title ng posts at ipposts ko eh. patulong naman..

acey said...

bagay naman bro :)

RONeiluke, RN said...

kalansay kolektor: ahehehe! sobra! hindi nako magpapahaba ng buhok ulit :)

onat: sige hintayin ko yun... peace out!

dylan: sige! pakalbo ka na rin! hehehe!

nako lahat naman yata tayo natakot ni sadako! hahaha!

ahh..i see. i love their music. hehehe! emo rin kasi ako..uhmm..ok naman yung title..pero think something na personal..something that could somehow describe you...hehehe

acey: thanks! wheeew! :)

Myk2ts said...

bagay. i thought it was wwm!

Reyn said...

Ron, this is









AWEEESSSSOMMMMMEEEEE









hahaha!

RONeiluke, RN said...

myk2ts: wahehe! salama naman :)

reyn: wehhh??? hehehe!

salingPUSA said...

you looked more mature, in a good way. Yung kasi hirap satin, we are afraid of welcoming maturity in our lives when in fact it could be a good thing.......

and you feel better diba? you feel lighter. If you are honest with that which I know you are, then you made a good decision.....

ika nga ng kanta,
...if
it
makes
you
happy
It can't be too bad.....

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what is the most important criteria for a good decision, that is if you know you didn't harm anybody and that you feel good about it.......

salingPUSA said...

lagi kong binibiro mga stude ko dati na nagpapakalbo---karamihan kasi sa kanila yung mga patapon sa buhay kung baga. so sabi ko-----diba advice ko wag kayo magpapakalbo? yan, pag nabibilad kayo sa araw, nag-eevaporate utak nyo, nag-si-shrink tuloy lalo....it's just a joke of coarse,

,.......but seriously, there are alot of stereotypes about that in the Phils so I understand the discomfort it brings to you. Glad that you feel better now.

You just have to understand Ron that all of us have our own curse, our weaknesses. In my case, my very active sebacious gland.keke.

I learned though that I need to have a positive outlook in life, that is the most important thing.

nways, nice transformation. laykit.

Chyng said...

i like the new look as well!

uy si parang michael scofield! :D

caryn said...

hey ron, i like your new do. it suits you ;-) good move!

Roland said...

summer naba sa pinas? hahaha.

our haircut often describes the goings-on in our head... pag na pra praning ako, nagpapa skin head ako! ikaw, anong reason mo? hehehe :D

bena said...

you look so macho with a shaved head! rock on dude! hihihi!

mas papable ang look! feash out! vi-a-v ron! ;)

RONeiluke, RN said...

Saling pusa: thanks for those wonderful words of wisdom… sapul na sapul! Hehehe!

I think people are scared of maturity because they are terrified of change…they fail to understand that change is bound to be good and it breaks monotony and makes life more exciting.

You’re a cool teacher. I’m learning loads from you :)

Thanks!

Chyng! Waa! Thanks! :) kakapalan ko na mukha ko! Hahaha!

Caryn: thanks, caryn :)

roland: hahaha! hindi pa! hahaha! rason ko? magulo ang utak ko! hahaha!

bena: thanks! bena! hihi!

jiNx said...

uhmm..kakaiba! hahaha..

pero bagay xa..

u looked stress free and more matured..

ok yan..hehe.

miz kna nmin nla tutay..

wla kna ng mkakamot pag naiinis o naasar ka..hehe.wla ng buhok eh..

gudlak on ur new passion..mwuuaahh! tc..

Dhianz said...

luv d' transformation... i already told u dat eniweiz devah... =) it lookz good on yah.. =)

RONeiluke, RN said...

dhianz: yeah you did! hehe! thanks yet again :)

istepf said...

fine, isa po ako s mga kumontra, at ngworry.. hehe, sbi mo nga that haircut could make or break you, hehe.. crowning glory p nman natin yan, hehe..=)

but anyway, looks good on you,, buti n lng! hehehe..=)

nung ngtxt k nga skin, telling me u did it, naicp ko, "uh-oh, this is it!" hehe,, medyo bc lng ako nung mga pnahong un kya di ko agd ncheck, nahuli tuloy ako.. hehe..=)

sbi ko nga nung mgkchat tyo, gusto p rin kita mkita s personal,, ;)

istepf said...

namiss ko tuloy prison break, kaw kc, at kmsta nman ang pggamit ky wentworth miller s haloween party??!! hehe..=)

huhu,, phiram prison break!

RONeiluke, RN said...

steph: can i say the BIG FAT I TOLD YOU SO??? haha! joke! hahaha! oo nga eh...sobrang kabado talaga ako nung ngapagupit ako..pero ngayon ang bilis niyang lumago..i think kelangan ko na ulit bumisita sa barbero...ahehehe!

sana magkita tayo minsan...

ps: gaano kadalas ang minsan??? hahaha!

misya!

istepf said...

hehe,, ganun nga tlga, kapatid ko din kc db, semikal.. tropa n nga nya barbero, un lng gumugupit s knya..=)

gaano kdalas ang minsan?? -- prang palabas lng s telebisyon,, hehe..

tama, dpat mgkikita n ulit tyo.. gsto kong mgrelax at tumwa ulit ksma kyo.. ;)