You have not known what you are.
You have slumbered upon yourself all your life.
Your eyes have been as much as closed most of the time.
What you have done is already in mockeries.

The mockeries are not you.
Underneath them
And within them,
I see you lurk...


-Walt Whitman


17.10.08

lament for 'lamentions'?


miss karmi, the organizer of the e[kwento]mo: emo writing contest left a message in my tagboard asking for my e-mail address. she also left her messager id for me to be able to talk with her, obviously about the said writing competition. the voting will conclude tonight and i'm not sure if 'lamentations' is still qualified... Karmi had send an e-mail just now.

Hi Ron,

Nakuha namin ung entry mo para sa E[kwento]MO. Maganda ung kwento. :) Kaya lang, isang requirement namin sa contest namin eh dapat personal experience ung isusulat. Eh ung entry mo, based sa pulubi saka maganda babae diba, hindi sya talaga nangyari sa iyo? Di namin napansin kaagad, kitams, last na nga ng botohan diba? Dahil dito, hindi tuloy namin malaman kung tuluyan ka na naming hindi isasali pa sa contest o ano. Pwede ka kasing madisqualify dahil nga sa entry mo pa lang mismo. Pero dahil halos patapos na nga ang botohan bago namin ito napansin, pinagiisipan pa namin.

Sana ay makasagot ka kaagad dito sa email para mapagusapan natin. O kaya'y imessage mo lang kami ni arvin sa YM. cutecarme, onebigearth.

Salamat at pasensya na.

-- E[kwento]Mo


I replied on her YM:

lukas_03: ahh... i see...

lukas_03: well...technically its fiction...

lukas_03: because none of it really happened... i was inspired by a certain event...

lukas_03: but in the point of view of a writer, i was able to conceal something personal...

lukas_03: i was able to camouflage personal things that happened to me, delivering it to the readers not directly but by representing myself as the 'tin can'...

lukas_03: as dabo had said, you'll only get the meaning of it all if you psychoanalize me, the writer...

lukas_03: "isang requirement namin sa contest namin eh dapat personal experience ung isusulat"---this was something personal, i tell you... i just decided to articulate it in a different writing style... a different medium, considering writing aesthetics to tell a story that may appear a fantasy but relatively close to real life...

lukas_03: this said, i may have misunderstood the instructions but i'd rather say i was able to undertand in a different way but still towards the qualified end

lukas_03: but, since i'm going crazy due to my allergies, i can't trust my judgment at this point. hehehe!

lukas_03: i'll just leave it to you guys and do what you think would speak of justice.

lukas_03: peace out! :)


and now i wait if i'll end up on the same fate as that of the 'tin can'. trash. ahehehe!

. . .

UPDATE: i was able to clarify things last night with ms. karmi and explained my stand on the matter. she sort of interviewed me and asked me to tell her how my entry was categorized as 'personal'. well, i use a lot of symbologies in my writing. i just pointed them out and explained what they really mean for me since the entry could be interpreted in so many ways depending on the person who reads it. she had to consult arvin, her partner and co-organizer of the contest...

i'm still in guys :) wheeew! hehehe! the winners will be announced this coming sunday. i'm so psyched :) thanks a lot guys for the support:)


24 comments:

FerBert said...

kadalasan pag gumagawa ako ng emo entries idinadaan ko na lang din sa fiction.. lalo na pag temang love.. gayunpaman sumasangaayon ako sa sinabi mong kahit na katha lamang ito ng malikot na imahinasyon eh personal pa rin iyon dahil nilalahad mo kung ano ang saloobin ng puso at nararamdaman mo..

REDLAN said...

style yan ng pagsusulat. eversince na fan ako ng blog mo, alam ko na binabase mo yung sa personal experience mo. naramdaman ko yun kasi kapag nagbabasa ako there's a feeling na madescribe mo ang situation. there's a feeling talaga. nasa style yan ng isang writer. yung sarili mo sa entry na 'to inihalintulad mo sa isang tin can. kaso sa huli sinabi mo na na inspired ka dun sa pulubi at sa magagandang babae kaya siguro ang pag intindi nila drawing lang yun. pero kung basahin mo talaga, matuklasan mo na si ron at ang tin can ay iisa. hehehe. yan kasi ang style mo.

sayang naman ang boto namin di ba? bakit hinintay pa ang huling araw? bakit kailangan pa na matapos at botohan at saka i-disqualified? joke lang.

manalo, matalo, ma disqualified man, fan mo pa rin ako.

Chyng said...

ah, so dapat first hand, ikaw mismo naka-experience ang gusto nila?

well, you dont need an award afterall. basta madame naka-appreciate, enough na yun dba? (--,)

_ice_ said...

sayang naman..

wala pa naman silang disisyon.. wait nalang natin..

musta?

Lance said...

hope you'd still qualify.. teka nga. bakit hindi mu ako na invite na mag vote sa yo? i was willing to give you my vote but wala naman akong natanggap na invitation...hehehe nagpapainvite pa talaga ako eh, noh? wahaha

KRIS JASPER said...

nag reply na ba? baka ginagamot pa... for sure nagka nosebleed yung mga yun sa reply mo. Lalim kasi.
"it's up to you" lang naman pala ang ending. Haay.... Ron.

seriously, sana ok lang sa kanila ang entry mo..

And hey, na check mo na ba ang escala?

JoShMaRie said...

naku!

sana bigyan ng consideration. sayang.

ganda pa naman...

Mugen said...

Pag na-disqualify ka, i boycott yang awards na yan.

Myk2ts said...

i got the point. it can be fictionally done but the thought of the story is very personal.

teka, me word ba na "fictionally"?

i just hope that the entry will win.

congratulations in advance ron :)

lloyd belleza said...

i hope you get a spot in that contest. :)

GreenMangoes said...

oo nga. have you ever wrote a poem? ganun din naman yun sa poetry. we need to conceal something in order to be gratified at the end.

pwede akong mag sulat ng AKO mismo ang karakter at nangyari TALAGA sakin yung isunulat ko, at pwede din akong sumulat na AKO ANG MISMONG karakter, pero hindi talaga NANGYARI ang kwinento ko. So what will be their justification? through Emotion and Investigations.

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I voted for the "Tin Can" not because of technicalities, but because i can relate. ;)

panalo ka, pare! hehe!

RonTuron said...

i hope manalo talaga yung binoto ko.

IKAW yun! naks! habangan natin ang resulta! eksayted ako para sayo!

Dennis Villegas said...

I agree with you Ron, that's your literary style and it's personal...so good luck and hope you win!

Fjordan Allego said...

so sad ngayon lang talaga ako nakapaglagalag ng matagal tagal... hindi man lang ako nakaboto.. andami kasing problema... so ano na nangyari sa result??

alam mo, nakakanosebleed kasi talaga ang entry mo... hahahaha!! yakang yaka yan!! pasok ka pa rin naman di ba?

http://fjordz-hiraya.blogspot.com

the spool artist said...

i'm glad you're still in ron! if not, i'll fly back to the philippines first thing tomorrow and do another EDSA revolution para mag protest!

Mabuti naman at pasok ka na ulit... mahal kasi pamasahe pauwi sa pinas eh! hehehe...

seriously, good luck... you deserve it!

alex said...

ron congrats sa ekwento award!

karmi said...

katulad nga ng sabi ko sau sa YM, iba ung atake mo sa entry mo, compared sa ibang entries.. kaya siguro naquestion namin.. :)

pasensya kung pinaexplain ko talaga sau ung entry mo, and you gave a very good justification on why it is for you, personal.

thanks for joining and congrats!

JoShMaRie said...

meron silang video sa youtube.

just search for "tabass" or "bandang tabass". :)

hay...gudluck sa entry mo dewd. sana bigyan naman ng consideration. :)

salingPUSA said...

sad naman....after all the voting and everything. They should have told you earlier. And since they did not at admit nila na di nila napansin at ngyn lang ....OMG....something is wrong....di nila binabasa RON, yun lang. ngyn lang nila binasa. Alangan naman matagal na nila nabasa at ngyn lang nag-sink diba? Slow naman ata masyado nun?

dabo said...

a amateur poet said in her profile in urbis.com, that one should not dare judge a poem.. because it comes from the soul and no one should judge one soul..

that applies to paintings and statues..
and so does prose writing..

emotions are always abstract..


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no comment about their rules

Pole Ong said...

Donald Trump organized a beauty contests without understanding beauty itself, so he always end up with trashy winners... I just hope that the organizers of this writing contest knew the symbologies and contexts of writing or at least dig in to the stories they're reading... Ka-asar...

caryn said...

;-) did you get in ron?

caryn said...

hehehe. i actually said i hope you get it-win, i mean ;-) congrats for bagging the 3rd place

RONeiluke, RN said...

caryn: i did get in and won. placed 3rd. thank you so much :)